Fighting off some old urges...

Today has been kind of hard.
It was not so much any cravings as just my inner pessimist deciding to make an appearance. She’s gotten a lot of limelight for the last couple of years and she refuses to go away sometimes... damn drama queen!
Today was one of those days. No matter how busy I was at work or how hard I worked out at the gym... the doubt wouldn’t stop bubbling up. I am putting a lot of pressure on myself and I think I am too impatient with my results. I know how far I have to go but some days it seems impossible and today for some reason I kind of got lost in the impossibility of it all. I didn’t cheat even though I really wanted to and I went to the gym even though I really didn’t want to. I am fighting those old urges that got me all this flab and fighting the pessimist who let me get so lost. I am ready to change and part of that is trying to learn patience. That’s what this situation needs patience... and determination :).